In the winter I remember standing up at the road in the dark, waiting for the yellow school bus to appear shortly after 7 a.m. I had my lunch in a paper bag, my books under my arm, and a coat wrapped around me. Bear in mind that girls were not allowed to wear pants to school until I was a senior in high school, so picture me shivering in knee socks and loafers, waiting for the bus.
The farm was 17 miles outside of town and about 20 miles from my junior high school and high school. But the ride to school took well over an hour. The bus crawled along winding country roads, stopping frequently where there were clusters of houses, then speeding up a bit in the lonely spaces between farms. Some of my cousins rode the bus, but most of the other riders were kids I didn’t know well.
The bus had hard, dark green vinyl-cushioned bench seats with a curved metal bar on the top of each seat, so you could hold on when the driver took a curve a little too fast or if you wanted to stand up and talk to someone. This would invariably cause the driver–generally male and grumpy–to shout, “Y’all sit down right now!”
During the winter the sun would come up in the course of the ride. If the clouds were thin I could see the sunrise through the scrubby trees and bushes along the side of the road as we roared past. Red skies at morning, sailors take warning—a pink sunrise was considered a sure sign of rain or sleet to come.
The bus ride to school was usually quiet, since all of the teenagers wished they were still at home in bed. Some of them slept all the way, while others gossiped or tried to finish homework. I often sat with my cousin Judy. During those long rides we didn’t talk much.
I watched the countryside flashing past and daydreamed. I don’t remember what I dreamed about. But I was convinced this was just the beginning of the road for me. I had no idea how long the road would be or where I was going. Even as I absorbed the stark beauty of a winter sunrise, I knew I was going somewhere, some day, out of the hills and hollers.